I still love, ever so much, the person from the past. The person that i could never be with, there is always something getting the way. I love her, as much as i used to before but i wonder if she realises it.
She was and still is the only one i can talk to, "silent moments" barely happens between us; you know, when people get tounge tied=).
Sighs* I wish i could turn back time, turn the clock back to 6 years ago where i saw her and i couldnt stop staring. We had lunch with some of the adults after church. The image stays fresh in my mind, just as if it happened yesterday. She was sitting at one corner of the table and i was sitting at the other. I couldnt keep my eyes off her but I notice that she didnt realise I was there... dang*
Ever since then, i couldnt stop thinking about her. After like, years, only did i start talking to her and it was fun. Crapped about everything we could think of. Those were the days, the days we still had no worries. Now everybody seems so grown up, distancing away. I miss the old days, miss the time we spent together and all the spots only she would know what i'm talking about.
We quarreled alot growing up, but i'm glad that at the end of every fight, we always forgive each other no matter we quarrel over and over again. She was the one who impacted my life the most, without her, i would probably be some narrow minded typical chinese dude right now. She opened my eyes in many ways and i guess i could say the same for her as well, i hope.
Its kinda amazing actually the patience and forgiveness we have for each other, its like neverending. Anyways, we were never really together, even after so long, feelings unfaded, there was always something getting in the way. Probably it just wasnt the right time but i guess it will come if we were meant to be. For now, friends will do. I really dunno what else to say right now so I guess i'll stop here before i say anything wrong... LAWLS! chiao!