Jonathan Lim/

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5:10 AM

Thursday, February 18, 2010

A step forward

Now I'm finally living life, tasting freedom, and doing whatever i want. She is gone, but will still always remain here in my heart no matter wherever she goes or whatever she does. Silent sorrows showing mercy upon me as i have faith that God has plans for me, my life, my wife and my future. I know i cannot look at whats coming ahead, good or bad, all i can do is pray for a light at the end of every dark tunnel. My love for her and the pain in this weak heart may fade slowly, but the memories of Us, Once Upon a Time shall always remain. I will never forget all the good times we've been through as i push aside the bad ones. I saw her last night and my mind went blank and i just didnt know what to do, but it just broke my heart that she never even bothered to say anything to me, not even a glance. Instead, sticking to my "semi-retarded" cousin. Even when she saw me alone, she just walked right pass. Gosh, my heart just fell out. Then hours ago, i heard she already has a new "soulmate" and my heart stopped. I didnt know what to say or think. But i guess thats just the way she choose to live, i cant stop what she wants to do, neither do i want to get hurt hearing more about it. I'm just letting time heal my wounded heart as i try to sew the pieces back together. Now things are just fine, i'm not losing my mind over her anymore and i'm not having the urge to talk to her again and again like i used to. I'm finally letting go, moving on, packing up my bags and head off. But again, the memories of her will never fade. She may not care, she may not bother, she may not think but at least i know that i gave her my all, thats enough for me. I do not regret loving her so much even when it only brought my heartaches. No matter wut, she is just human, every human has their flaws, and its just the way she chooses to live. For me, i'm trying to enjoy life no matter how sucky it can be, and friends are what i need the most right now. So yeah, i guess its all said and done. All i can say now is V, take care in no matter what you do or where you go. I wish you all the best.

Signing off,
Jon~