Jonathan Lim/

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2:34 AM

Sunday, February 14, 2010

picking up the pieces

   I'm now gaining control of my life again, doing things i wanna do, being free to talk to anybody or meet up with anyone i want. Nothing is holding me back now, love is still there but i choose to ignore it and push that stupid feeling away. Why should i suffer every night thinking and letting myself slip away for someone? Why should i go through great lengths and pain just to make that someone happy? Why should i give the world to that someone when all i get is nothing but a landslide of heartaches? The word misused by people nowadays, L.O.V.E. , only means waste of effort, energy, time, money and feelings to me now. I dont see what i have to benefit from for loving someone with all my heart and bending backwards just to make her smile. Now, all i do is for myself and for my friends who gives a damn. Love is overrated, 4 words which can turn someone's life upside down and losing hope on everything he/she has ever done for the other. If she asks me now, i will still say "yes, i still do love you even if we dont talk or see each other anymore, i do" but still, i've made my choice to move on with it and face the fact that she is gone. Thats what life is all about, learning from every mistake you make.

   But anyways, life is good now. Single and a free life full of friends who will be right with me till the very end. I'm starting to feel the feel again. Loving life and living it to the fullest.
Not letting the past put me down and anything get in my way of my search for Joy and Peace. Now all i need to figure out is what to do with my life, and my soon to come sucky SPM results, LAWL! Gosh, what an imagination i'm having now. Going back to school, seeing the "wonderful" teachers i had and hoping i dont stumble upon my class teacher, Cik Aminah, or else she is going to bug me again for my Sivik text book which i urm, lost. haha.

   Guess thats all i gotta say for now, need to get some rest so i can keep my eyes open for people giving ang paos! wohoo! =p
nita ya all.
happy new year and also a blessed romantic valentines!

Signing off, ~Jon~