As tasks starts to overwhelm me, assignments are burying me, people are stomping over me, i ask myself "why do i always sacrifice myself so that everyone is happy and well off?". Many people have told me, "sometimes you just can't satisfy everyone" but still I was too stubborn to listen and still continued to try my best to fill joy in the hearts of others. Every single day, people tend to take advantage over me just because I'm being so nice to them but what they cease to realize is that I'm only human, I have flesh, blood and feelings, just like everyone else. But yet i still try to help everyone as much as possible till the extend of sacrificing myself bit by bit. Why can't others see that I'm human as well, why cant i be treated as good as how i treat others? When they are at fault, I do not blame them yet I pick them up from the ground and comfort them, telling them "at least you did your best" but when I make one mistake, people scold, shout, point fingers and screw the shit outta me...
Don't I have a heart that bleeds as well? Cut me and you can still see blood, just like you and everyone else. I am not God, neither am I a saint. I am just as good as you, a sinner, a person that makes mistakes but why is it nobody gives a damn about me when I do nothing but care for everyone else? People say "if you want to be treated well, treat others well"... haven't I been good enough? Its depressing how heartless people can be.
oh well, i guess thats life huh?
I've learnt my lesson. No more Mr.Nice Guy.
cheers*
