Just when i thought it was all finally over, the heartbreaks and the sorrows ended. Another surprise struck from out of nowhere. Now I'm left here again, broken and lost, not knowing what to do next or who to talk to. I was hoping she would be different, that she would understand how I would feel. I don't blame her, its not her fault she has so many perfect choices and that i turned out to be the least perfect one. I was really trying my very best to gain her attention, but i guess even that wasn't enough. I was hoping that everything would be fine, everything would run smooth, for once in my life. It started good at first, and she was actually one person in my entire life who actually showed that she cared and makes me smile at every sight of her. How can i smile anymore without anyone to give me an excuse to smile for no reason? Only she could do that. Now I have to put on a fake smile everywhere i go. I wish things were different, that she actually gave me a chance to prove myself as time passes. I guess I asked for this, she warned me but i was too stubborn. Still, I do not regret anything, at least I found joy in my life, for a while.
For now, I seriously just give up on girls, I am so sick and tired of hearing the same word repeated by every female which is "sorry". I am just really so confused and frustrated by all this crap. At first, i was annoying, then i was liked, after that I'm left hanging in the rain.
I don't know whats what anymore. I need get some fresh air and try to find peace from the night sky.
guess thats all from this chapter.
goodbye.
