Jonathan Lim/

Welcome and thank you for visiting... =p cheers* hope you enjoy what you see

3:28 PM

Friday, February 26, 2010

LA SALLIAN'S NIGHT OUT!!

   La Sallian's Night Out was a blast. I didn't know how the 5 of us, in 3 days, pulled this off. We were shocked that 70pax people actually turned out even when the confirmed ones ffk-ed us. We thought more or less, only 30 people would turn out but i guess we were wrong. So wrong that we had to buy extra meat...lawls!

   Last night was fun, i got the see the faces of my past in school again. Those naughty ones, those fun ones, those nerdy ones and especially those sissies... xD haha, kiddin kiddin... Anyways, i guess that overall, everyone had a good time and all our restless efforts was put to good use. Man, the 3days before that was hectic. We only got all the stuff on the day itself. Amazing? i know...=p

   It was good to see the old faces again, smiling and enjoying themselves. Either chit chatting, running around, helping to the sisha, playing basketball or just bulldozing their way to get FOOD! hahahaha, it was so cool. How about 20 people crowded around the barbecue for 8 pieces of meat. hahaha... It was a hilarious sight, cuz for me, i just slickly squeezed my way through, took a piece of chicken wing and ran off... =x but, Karma never lets us go. I kena food poisoning after that... LOL

   Everyone seems to be having a good life now, lepaking around with pals and enjoying themselves, some in college and mostly working. For me, i quit my job so i can finally start taking my license and at the same time, decide and confirm what i wanna do with my life.
Damn, its all so so frustrating but anyways, cheers*

Event credits to Zhi Peng, Sundra, Chee Kiat, Sabash and Me.

5:10 AM

Thursday, February 18, 2010

A step forward

Now I'm finally living life, tasting freedom, and doing whatever i want. She is gone, but will still always remain here in my heart no matter wherever she goes or whatever she does. Silent sorrows showing mercy upon me as i have faith that God has plans for me, my life, my wife and my future. I know i cannot look at whats coming ahead, good or bad, all i can do is pray for a light at the end of every dark tunnel. My love for her and the pain in this weak heart may fade slowly, but the memories of Us, Once Upon a Time shall always remain. I will never forget all the good times we've been through as i push aside the bad ones. I saw her last night and my mind went blank and i just didnt know what to do, but it just broke my heart that she never even bothered to say anything to me, not even a glance. Instead, sticking to my "semi-retarded" cousin. Even when she saw me alone, she just walked right pass. Gosh, my heart just fell out. Then hours ago, i heard she already has a new "soulmate" and my heart stopped. I didnt know what to say or think. But i guess thats just the way she choose to live, i cant stop what she wants to do, neither do i want to get hurt hearing more about it. I'm just letting time heal my wounded heart as i try to sew the pieces back together. Now things are just fine, i'm not losing my mind over her anymore and i'm not having the urge to talk to her again and again like i used to. I'm finally letting go, moving on, packing up my bags and head off. But again, the memories of her will never fade. She may not care, she may not bother, she may not think but at least i know that i gave her my all, thats enough for me. I do not regret loving her so much even when it only brought my heartaches. No matter wut, she is just human, every human has their flaws, and its just the way she chooses to live. For me, i'm trying to enjoy life no matter how sucky it can be, and friends are what i need the most right now. So yeah, i guess its all said and done. All i can say now is V, take care in no matter what you do or where you go. I wish you all the best.

Signing off,
Jon~

2:34 AM

Sunday, February 14, 2010

picking up the pieces

   I'm now gaining control of my life again, doing things i wanna do, being free to talk to anybody or meet up with anyone i want. Nothing is holding me back now, love is still there but i choose to ignore it and push that stupid feeling away. Why should i suffer every night thinking and letting myself slip away for someone? Why should i go through great lengths and pain just to make that someone happy? Why should i give the world to that someone when all i get is nothing but a landslide of heartaches? The word misused by people nowadays, L.O.V.E. , only means waste of effort, energy, time, money and feelings to me now. I dont see what i have to benefit from for loving someone with all my heart and bending backwards just to make her smile. Now, all i do is for myself and for my friends who gives a damn. Love is overrated, 4 words which can turn someone's life upside down and losing hope on everything he/she has ever done for the other. If she asks me now, i will still say "yes, i still do love you even if we dont talk or see each other anymore, i do" but still, i've made my choice to move on with it and face the fact that she is gone. Thats what life is all about, learning from every mistake you make.

   But anyways, life is good now. Single and a free life full of friends who will be right with me till the very end. I'm starting to feel the feel again. Loving life and living it to the fullest.
Not letting the past put me down and anything get in my way of my search for Joy and Peace. Now all i need to figure out is what to do with my life, and my soon to come sucky SPM results, LAWL! Gosh, what an imagination i'm having now. Going back to school, seeing the "wonderful" teachers i had and hoping i dont stumble upon my class teacher, Cik Aminah, or else she is going to bug me again for my Sivik text book which i urm, lost. haha.

   Guess thats all i gotta say for now, need to get some rest so i can keep my eyes open for people giving ang paos! wohoo! =p
nita ya all.
happy new year and also a blessed romantic valentines!

Signing off, ~Jon~

2:04 AM

Monday, February 1, 2010

Moving Forward

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