Tonight is another dark cold night. I dont see any stars in the sky, there isnt a single soul on the streets. The night feels so cruel that i could imagine evil lurking around.
My heart numbed by the pain, my brain dead from the cold and my eyes all dried up.
How much i want her to be the one to comfort me anytime, everytime. I want to share each moment of my life with her no matter happy or sad. I want her to be right beside me caring for me, comforting me as i do for her. I just feel so lost now that she is not around, it feels like theres a missing piece of my heart lying around somewhere but i just cant seem to find. It feels as though my life is incomplete, i need her so badly or i soon too will fade off into the dark, cold sky. If only i wasnt so stupid to make dumb mistakes all the time, maybe she could be still talking to me now. All i wanted was her full attention, for her to show me she loves me all the time. But sometime she just could push me aside as i was some 2nd hand junk. I'm just so frustrated, i love her, i want her, i need her but she dosent seem to need me as much anymore. Each day she seems to grow further and further apart from me, and i can do nothing but stare. I dont want to lose her, i want her for the rest of my life. I wish it was so simple. Sighs* ............