Jonathan Lim/

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Monday, December 7, 2009

a Night in the Dark

Tonight as i sit here in a dark corner of my mind, sadness fills my heart along with confusion and depression. The pain feels like as if my heart is being stabbed with a knife over and over again. Every night nowadays, my eyes are filled with tears that even when i wake up, i can still find tears rolling down my eyes. Never had i feel this much hurt for someone i love ever so much, no one has stolen my heart like she did that ever little thing she said or did could hurt me to my soul.

If only she knew how much she meant to me and how much i really need her. Its for a fact that my life now would be empty and unfulfilled if i never had met her. I feel so foolish and down now, asking myself "how could i do all this to the person i loved the most in my life? She is the person i have been searching for all my 17years and now that i've found her, i'm throwing it all down the drain?! How could i be so cold to not even realise what i am doing to her and to myself?!". Time and time again i have done the same mistake without even realising it, how stupid can i be. But i am trying my best, i really am giving my all. Its just that, sometimes i really do things without even giving it a tought, a lot in fact. All i know is that i love her with all my heart, i had always and will always love her till the very end. My heart is hers to keep weather she wants it or not, it belongs to her now. I love her and i am willing to go to ends of the world for her.

In my eyes, she is the only star shining ever so brightly in the night sky. Her smile could turn my frown upside down. Nothing would make me happier but to just see her smiling back at me. She completes me and she is the only person that has the key to my heart. I just wished she knew how much she actually meant to me and appreciate every moment spent together with me without regrets.

My sweetheart,
i need you to know that
I <3 you.